My last post was pretty bleak, but I am happy to say my life has really made a turn around for the better since then. I got the love of my life back and even though things aren’t always easy, we are working through them. He still chooses me everyday when he could have anyone he wants…this makes the biggest difference to me. How much he is willing to endure is still up in the air but I am learning to trust him more and more again each day that he is still here for me. Never thought I would ever have this again.
I also got into the college of my dreams and received enough grants and scholarships to cover the cost. Hopefully, I will have received my BA in Health Services Management within the next 2-3 years. After that, my real life starts out there in the working world with a career and not just a job.
So many challenges are still ahead of me, but I am much more eager to face them all now than I have ever been. My life has reached a balance it’s never really had until now and I can literally feel myself growing up. I always wondered how someone goes from being a child to an adult and age has little to do with it. I think the amount of responsibility a person carries and how they handle that responsibility that dictates the level of maturity in that person. Little by little, my family is starting to see the change too. I’ve had to fight every step of the way for them to see me as something more than just a naive child, but in a few years they won’t really have any other choice.
I am crossing my fingers that things keep moving in the right direction for me. I am trying my best to make the right choices and steer clear of any negativity. Insecurity sometimes makes this hard, but my boyfriend is my biggest fan and doesn’t let me hold that line of thinking very long at all. He’s my best friend. I thank God every night for him….
I’m actually concerned for boys who complain about how different girls look without makeup. Like did you think eyeshadow permanently alters a girls eyelid? Are you frightened when people change clothes